this is not.......
ok........ im ranting... here goes.

those of you who say you "know" me think twice. just because you can point me out in a crowd, or know some basic things about me, does not mean you know who i am. the things you see, the things you observe, thats "what" i am. thats what you percieve from your vision. ok,

to most of you, i am jaws, from the club, or im jaws from myspace

you may have read my info on my myspace profile. but that does not mean that you know who i am. sure, my myspace provides, my age, location, hobbies, music choices, and a little about me section.

thats all it is. thats about me. what you see on my myspace is just a breif summary into the world of jaws. there is so much more to me, than the fuckking green text you read on this site. you all see me, you observe, you make your assumptions, you think you know me. you are so far gone.

i try to be as fuckking straight to the point on my profile, so you can see how i think. those are things about me, and things i like. that doesnt make WHO i am.

if i was to type in who i am into this profile, first off it would take fuckking months, and myspace would need a new fuckking server to keep track of all this shit.

you cannot judge a person, or think that you know who they are by reading a few paragraphs on a website.

to tell the truth, i dont know who i am anymore. i look in the mirror, i see what ive become and im disapointed. who i used to be, i used to be innocent. i used to be alone, and i fuckking liked it that way.

nobody knew who jaws was. all the years you've been going to the club, so have i. but i didnt go to the club to hang with friends, the club, to me, isnt a social party. to me the club was my escape.

i went to the club. i didnt go with friends. i took the train by myself. i went in by myself and left by myself. i sat in the corner and listened to the music.

and thats all i ever wanted. to sit there in the dark, listen to music and escape my shithole life that i had outside of nocturne.

but you fuckking people....

you fuckks, have brought me into the limelight, make a fuckking spectacle of me. now im fuckking mr. popularity.

i never asked for this. i was happy by myself. i was content. i was satisfyed with being alone. now, i cant go to the club and listen to music, i can sit in a corner and just be alone.

NO.. i cant do that, because i have to say hi to EVERYBODY, everybody that doesnt know me.

and why am am i popular now? why do so many people know who i am?

because of the way i look.

and thats it

im not even nice to you fuckking people.

you dont even know me, why do you like me? im not a great person, id rather be alone, im nothing to gawk at, im not what you all make me out to be. im just fuckking jaws. and i just fuckking like music. and i just like to fuckking dance. .

ok if i wanted to go hang out with a bunch of people surrounding me, id go to the god damned MALL.....

the club.... i go there for music, and dancing. nothing more, nothing less.

ok i dont nessesarily like the extra attention that i get. i wish i could go to the club, walk in , go dance, but i cant do that. cuz i have to hug and "high five" a million fuckking people before i can take my jacket off.

im not a god damned celebrity. i dont want to be your idol. if you knew who i am, i wouldnt be your idol..... k im a peice of shit.

look at your fuckking god now.

im just some fuckking kid with hairspray, makeup, and peircings, and you all lift me up on your shoulders because i fuckking LOOK COOL.

i dont dress the way i do, to look cool. i just dress this way because i just fuckking do.

ok i saw a kid at shampoo last week, he was in the 80's room. wearing girls jeans, chucks, and the tighest shirt he could find at the fuckking salvation army.

the point is..... i saw the SAME KID the next week, in the goth room, wearing fuckking vinyl pants, platform boots, black lipstick, eyeliner, and a fishnet shirt..

ok i dont get dressed up to go to the club, i just get dressed. this is me every fuckking day of the week.



i met someone like 2 weeks ago, and we hung out outside of the club, and this person wanted to get to know me. they wanted to know MORE than whats on my myspace profile. i have not met a single person yet, who has asked me anything personal. or even gave a fuckk to find out what im like. ok we talked for fuckking 6 hours straight. 6 fuckking hours.

and this person listened to every single word i had to say. and it was a really big relief that someone actually gave a fuckk. and this person gave me hope for the human race.

i have ex-girlfriends, who dont even know my middle name. and im willing to bet half the kids at the club dont even know my FIRST name. they just know me as jaws. and they consider me a friend?????

how could i possibly be your friend if you dont even know my name????



i am sick of people and theyre false friendships, and people who talk shit, but then smile right in your face. and im sick of people idolizing me, when they have no reason to. and if there WAS a reason to idolize me, you wouldnt know the reason because you dont take the time, nor do you give two fuckks to find out who i am.



keep it that way. im just jaws from the club

and you're just whoever from the club.



everything is so impersonal lately.

a part of me wants to rip the flesh off my face, and start over new. i wont have a face, you wont recognize me, ill go back to the corner and listen to music. and ill be happy again.

no more false illusions, no more lies, no more bullshit, no more drama,

i did not ask for this. i wanted no one to know my name. i wanted to be a shadow, i went to the club to escape everyone, now i find myself with more people to escape.

noise is the only friend i require.

i just want to fuckking dissapear. you'll never see me again, youll just hear my music. and you dont have to like it either.

!~MyParasites







and to YOU!!!!!!! hahah i find it amazingly funny that after all this time time of neglect, and no affection,, SUDDENLY now that i have a girlfriend, NOWWW your showing interest in me...... well thats sooo toooo fuckking bad becuase you only want what you cant have. and you sure as hell cant have me back <4444

fuckface!!
i think i just might have completely stopped giving a fuckk about you.




and i dont care. its all about money, power, respect.
mother fuckker!

i dont care how selfish i am being. i want to make myself happy, none of you are helping me be happy, your all just dragging me down with you

and i dont care
im going to take care of MYSELF for a change.
cuz in reality

I COME FIRST

how about i take my OWN emotions into consideration for a change? maybe ill just find some sort of pleasure,
maybe ill just find a way to co-exist with this fuckking diabolical world.

maybe..... just maybe....

maybe youll understand

maybe ill just fuckking ROT